Just writing to say hello!

HEEEEEEEEEELLOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:)

Kisses

Eh, soh pra dar um update nessa página, que faz tempo q naum escrevo nada....... tb tudo anda taum corrido que naum tenho tempo nem de respirar.....odeio ficar presa a certas coisas........a certas obrigações......odeio obrigações.......todo mundo falava que se eu tivesse fazendo o q eu queria eu ía me sentir muuuuuuuuito melhor......mas parece q minha vida virou um inferno, e eu naum tenho mais tempo pra nada.......*ggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrr*

Ah mais tah tudo bem.......sometimes i find the right persons to me, but i think i cannot have them.......for many reasons......oh, i'm not sad.......buckley is playing on my headphones.........he's wonderful........so sensual.........hummmmmmmmm..............listen to him sometimes makes me wanna make love.........with someone who could understand the messages behind.......behind all the lyrics and songs..........'i know everybody here wants you'...........this is soooooo amazing..........sometimes i think i'm still waiting for my prince.....the perfect one........and then i look to myself and i just realize that this prince is the craziest guy in the whole fucking world.......LOL!!!!!!!!......the darkest, the weirdst (?!?), the most different........

Sometimes i think i'm not made for love..........for be loved......actually, for be understood.......that all on me is a completely mystery........and then i just realize how predictible i am.........i wanted to be different.........i really wanted that people notice this......do they notice?????!!!!!!!?????...........it's wonderful have another vision of life or love like i have........sometimes i think i'm tired cause i've been alone for so many years.......and the i just realize that i don't really care about it........that i just care about my principles, and my visions.......i know that sometimes i lost myself in the middle of my own anarchy.......but, who cares?????I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!........... ;)

I think i don't care cause i don't want to turn myself into a hypocrite.......to be like everybody.....with a stable life, and a short vision of what the world is beside of us......and it's larger than we can see........i know that one thing doesn't mean another thing........but i don't want to lose my visions even my principles.....or the strongest thing that i have inside of me........my love.........that obssession that i call love.......hum, it's hard but i know that maybe no one would understand this.........and i cannot do anything.......cause i won't lose that........never.......

I stayed so glad cause Blueshine asked me to go to Chicago to see Radiohead on August.......i would love to go.....if i had time.....and money.......hehehehehehehehehehehe ;)

Well, again my little angel, you're the only one...... :)

LOVE and KISSES

I'm feeeling so much better....it's like i had slept the whole night with my little angel.....i know i didn't but i felt like this....hum, sometimes i feel that he receives all my good thoughts...
I was feeling so strange cause i thought that something was happening, actually, would happen....i don't know if will or already did.....
But finally, yesterday i let some tears fall down....it was relieving for me, but i didn't cry everything ....i still need to cry....to clean my soul......
Yeah, even beeing better, i still feel alone......maybe is the season......i hate the winter cause i think more in my life......
I need to listen my little angel's voice again.......i don't know how he is......it's such a long time that i haven't seen his face......but i know that he's the same......

Love you little :)

Kisses